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I held you in my arms for only a moment in time, but I will hold you in my heart forever.
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This Isn't Goodbye
By Dom's Mom
 
Upon my darkest hour
I saw my son's sweet face
While my love for him holds so much power
The sound of his beating heart...well there was no trace
 
They said "Sorry your baby is dead"
What was I to do?
Surely it was a joke instead
Stillbirth only happens to few
 
Hours later
they placed him in his basinet
no incubator
no happy family snapping pictures yet
 
He lay lifeless
There wasn't a stir
My life became a horrendous mess
For which there was no cure
 
Instead of installing his carseat just right
and shopping for new clothes
Raging emotions caused us all to fight
and many friends became our foes
 
"Oh you'll have another"
Is what I hear each day
My son could never be replaced by a sister or brother
There's just simply no way
 
Don't tell me he wasn't meant to be
and that I still have time
my son has a spirit so very free
but changing his dirty diaper would've been just fine
 
So here I kiss my Dominic's urn
it's my way to say goodnight
The reason for this, I won't ever learn
To take my baby, who had the right?
 
But God is good
and holds my sweet child
I still love my baby as a mother should
but this loneliness drives me wild
 
And to My baby
I will see you soon
Can I hold you for a lifetime? yes? no? maybe?
For this I would do just anything, even bring you the moon
 
Wherever you fly
No matter how strong the winds have blown
This isn't goodbye
and you are NEVER alone
 
Look over your shoulder
and there my love will be
Even when the days turn colder
Look into your dreams and it is Mommy you can see
 
Call on me, my beautiful Butterfly
I won't ever leave you be
Every tear you see me cry
Is because you are not here with me
 
But as I told you many times before
There will come a day
We will not fight this sadness war
Our loves together will show the way
 
I love you always and forever
Until the stars fall from the sky
My heart wont stop longing for you, never
And just remember, I won't ever say Goodbye
 
Love,
Mommy
  
"A Baby's Secret"
I`m just a precious little person who didn`t quite make it there.
I went straight to be with Jesus, 
and I`m waiting for you here.
Don't you fret about me, Mommy,
I'm of all God's lambs most  blest.
Many dwelling here where I live,
waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorow,
a world marred with pain and sin.
So, sweet Mommy, dont you sorrow,
Chase the gloom and wipe the tears;
I went straight to Jesus' bosom.
May your heartache disappear.
Our Father gave me something for you,
It's our secret, Mommy dear;
Pressed it tight against my forehead,
Whispered in my tiny ear.
I'll be waiting for you, Mommy~
You and Daddy, all the rest.
I'll be with you then forever
And I'll give you Daddy's kiss.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don`t complain.
I have all Heaven`s Glory,
suffered none of earth`s great pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me.
I`d have loved to bring it fame.
But if I`d lingered in earth`s shadows,
I would have suffered just the same.
So sweet family-don`t you sorrow.
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus` arms
from my loving Mother`s womb.
~Author Unknown 
   
"What Makes A Mother"

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked, "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here

He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing Here

If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here!"
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons there are through
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates waiting for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
~Author Unknown 
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
A Moment In Time
By Mimi...Dominic's Grandma
At that moment in time I fell in love.
The purest of all.
Every moment of every day you were in my mind.
Every words I spoke was always about you.
At that moment in time.
I showed you off while you grew
Nothing else mattered, just you.
I have never felt love
as I did when I fell in love with you
I knew you, as my best friends,
the person who would change my life
forever
You knew me as your life

You are my life,

You are my soul,
You are my body, my blood,
My only true love
It is not quite right without you
and it never will be
Time passes, sorrow may fade
but my love will never end.
I'll love you forever, my first true love
Part of my soul is with you
I cannot pretend.
The scent of your skin,
your dark wavy hair,
Your beautiful sweet lips.
I touched you for a moment in time.
Will you remember when we meet again?
 
If the world stopped spinning,
it wouldn't matter to me.
I have fallen...
In love with you

My Beautiful Son!

 

"Dear Momma"
Dear Momma,
I know how much you love me
And I know how much you care.
I know that you're still wishing
That I could be down there.
I know this day is hard for you
And I know you'll probably cry.
And Jesus know you're hurting too
And He understands just why.
I wish that I could be there
To wipe away your tears.
But I'm up here with Jesus now
And in some future year,
We all will be together
And there will be no more tears.
And we'll get to know each other
Like we always wanted to.
But for now just know I love you
And Jesus loves you too.
My Father here in Heaven
Watches over me for you.
And He's sending someone to you
That I already know.
Someone you and Daddy can love
And touch and hold.
A little person bright and new
Whose life you two will mold.
So please remember Mommy
This new baby on your knee,
Is bringing to you from above
A little part of me.

Love, your little angel

 

"Just Say I'm Sorry"

You don't know how I feel
Please don't tell me that you do.
There's just one way to know -- have you lost a child too?
"You'll have another child!" -- must I hear this each day?
Can I get another mother, too, if mine should pass away?
Don't say it was "God's will" --
That's not the God I know.
Would God on purpose break my heart,
Then watch as my tears flow?

"Aren't you better yet?"
Is that what I heard you say?
NO! A part of my heart aches --
I'll always feel some pain.
You think that silence is kind,
But it hurts me even more.
I want to talk about my child
Who has gone through death's door.

Don't say these things to me,
Although you do mean well.
They do not take the pain away;
I must go through this hell.
I will get better slow but sure --
And it helps to have your near.
But a simple "I'm sorry you lost your child"
Is all I need to hear.

 

 

 

"Oh My Mother, My Mother" 

Oh Mother, my Mother,

I touch your tears,

invisible fingers

soothing your skin

I know you think of me so often

in the day, in the night,

in your dreams,

going into an empty nursery,

knowing I'll never be there,

but I am...in your heart,

in your soul, I shall always be,

for you gave so unselfishly

of yourself.

Inside of you, you created

such a world for me,

a world of laughter, of love,

of sadness, of sorrow,

every emotion people come to know,

you shared with me.

 

Even though I may never

feel your arms around me,

I felt your heart beating,

like a lullaby, singing me to sleep,

and your spirit giving me a safe haven,

already protecting me,

nurturing me,

preparing me for things to come.

Sometimes the journey

of life pulls souls apart,

and, yes, I had to go on

to another place.

I wish I could stay,

I wish this were a decision

I could make,

and I know you do, too.

Know this wherever you are:

I will always remember

that yours was the first love,

the first joy, the first soul

I will ever know.

You gave me courage to

go on in my journey.

I hope I can do the same

for you.

Your heartbeat will always

call me to you.

 

Love,

Your Child

 

 "A Mother's Dream"
I carried you so lovingly
Within my gentle womb…
And little did I realize,
Your life would end too soon
I never got the chance to say,
“I love you, little one,”…
Before I held you in my arms,
Your life on earth was done.
The grief is so indescribable,
To lose a child this way…
All the many hopes and dreams,
Just vanished on that day.
But I know I’ll see the sunshine bright,
Upon my baby’s face…
When I finally get to heaven,
All my pain will be erased.
We’ll soar the skies together,
As angels two by two…
We’ll have a sweet reunion,
This mothers dream come true.